Let me confess right away: I had a piece of pie. Apple pie. Delicious apple pie, I want to add. But don’t judge me: I only ate it out of social compulsions and it took all my will power to leave it at that. But I did.
Even though every inch of my body, heart and soul wanted the rest of the cake as well. And while being at it, why not have some milk and chocolate after? But… I stayed strong. I mastered my lower instincts and came out a better person, I believe. At least that’s what I tell myself, because if not, I missed out on delicious apple pie for no reason – and that would be plain stupid!
After having been in a consequent bad mood for the last two days I felt way better today. Only three days left! And with the ‘all you can eat’ dinner in sight on Saturday night who wouldn’t cheer up? Breakfast was okay, same as everyday on my plate: a whole-grain roll with a cup of coffee. I was looking forward to lunch and honestly enjoyed my leaf salad with balsamic vinegar again. The feta cheese I put on top even put a smile on my face, I believe. And then it happened: apple-gate ruined my clean statistics – not only for the day, but for the whole experiment. It will always be a stain on my white detox-vest. But judge for yourself: could I have said no? It was my colleagues 50th birthday; she partly baked the pie for me, knowing how much I love it. And since she is only with us once a week, she simply forgot about my detox-experiment. Nevertheless I said ‘no’ at first, when I was offered a piece. But you should have seen the look on her face when I declined: That sad look, those big questioning eyes… puppies, children and my colleague – they play in the same league when it comes to looking disappointed and gloomy! So it was up to me to either break my friend’s heart and ruin a bit of her birthday or give detox a break. We all know what I decided on.
But thanks to the pie I was not hungry in the afternoon for a change and therefore didn’t jump at my dinner plate as I usually do. The pie brought long lost countenance and dignity back! I had 100 gram of grilled ham and some fruit: grapes, blueberries, raspberries and honey melon. Afterwards I went to the birthday party I had feared so much, because I wasn’t sure what it would be like to stick to water for a whole evening when everybody else is drinking alcohol. And guess what! It may be surprising – but it is actually okay. It didn’t bother me at all! The party was great, the atmosphere was fantastic, the people were wonderful and I enjoyed myself just as much with tea and water as I had with wine. So all in all it was a brilliant day and I can’t wait for the next one. Two more days! Then it’s done. Oh, and before I forget: I have not weighed myself yet, I will leave that for the last day. But my jeans and of course a look in the mirror tell me, that I have lost a few kilos. It’s not a dramatic weight loss, but I have to admit, I feel in better shape and take that as a reward for my discipline. To be continued…