14 Days of Detox – Follow my Live Blog

Day 6

The highlight of my week! All my thoughts, expectations and high hopes focused on the culinary carte blanche for dinner, of course. Let’s therefore not waste many words about breakfast that consisted of a cup of tea with fresh lemon or my unspectacular lunch, made of two tomatoes, two hard boiled eggs and a plain whole-grain roll. Let’s rather dwell on dinner which was a long longed for and under expected sensual explosion!

Instead of sticking to my elaborate 4-course-plan at home, I decided to be sociable and meet with friends for dinner. Since the restaurant was my choice, I picked a burger place. I can’t put into words how happy I was, how much I was looking forward to my food. The interesting thing about it: my head was way more excited than my body! I was hungry, but not overly hungry and I didn’t necessarily have a serious craving for a burger per se at that moment. But inside my head it was carnival, birthday and New Year’s Eve at once! The burger was just something my mind wanted – for whatever reason. And I won’t lie, the first bite was a revelation: I had ordered a burger with goat cheese and fig sauce plus fries on the side and a glass of sparkling water and I can’t remember the last time I actually tasted so many flavors. It was highly intense, nothing less than a feast for the senses and a party in my head.

I could have stopped after having had half the burger, but knowing what’s on the menu for the next days, made me patiently stuff myself bit by bit and indulge in every single bite – not caring about the serious threat of bursting. I had no room for dessert after that, but I couldn’t resist two hours later at home. The ice cream I had bought earlier this day was calling me – by name, from what I heard. So I gave Ben & Jerry’s cookie dough the attention it deserved and never enjoyed the taste or the creamy, cold consistency more in my life than at that very moment. To my surprise I had no guilty conscience about dinner – okay, maybe apart from the first five minutes right after. Mostly because the light feeling that detox gives you was gone, I guess, and because I was very aware how unhealthy my choice of food was. I further asked myself later, why I couldn’t resist the ice cream at home and the simple answer was: because I can’t have it anytime I want now. That made me stuff myself with half a Burger that was unnecessary by the means of being hungry and eat a bowl of ice cream that was only there to calm the yelling in my head. So apart from detoxing one’s body I don’t think anybody should be on a diet for good. It simply messes with your head – a new experience for me. As with everything in life I think the secret is balance. I can’t wait to get back to that. To be continued…